Restoring my soul.

I am suffering from severe writers block, perhaps due to way too much academic writing for Uni.  All that dry, uninspired, long winded readings and essays that go for days has drained me of all my creativity.

It is with distinct discomfort that I am pursuing this blog today and dread that all that will be produced will be sheer drivel of the equally uninspiring kind of writing found in academia.  So please forgive me as I push on and push through the barrier of overgrowth to find some creativity deep down in the abyss of my mind and soul.

Abundance? What does it mean to you? Wealth? Health? Choice?  Just this morning I completed an @LisaNichols Abundance Now webinar to help motivate me out of my grumbly pit of lethargy.  Of course it was filled with wonderful anecdotes and plausible actions for changing mindset and moving forward and through any pain or wrong feeling.  At the end as usual with these “free” programs there was a plug for her Online 12 week Course with all these superb added extras in total valued at over $4000 but, just wait she’s inviting me to join for a “small payment”of just $997 – yes folks you heard right 1/4 of the value. I should be overjoyed by this generosity yes – and of course you can make payments; 3 to be exact because she knows some people can’t afford the one off payment.  How very kind of her.  She’s not alone in her generosity Tony Robbins weekend or week long spectaculars cost upwards of $2000 to attend – there are no free rides with Mr Robbins either.

It got me asking the question these people who supposedly built themselves up from nothing from starvation do they really remember how it is?  Do they really understand that as a mum of 3 there is no way to afford these astronomical amounts of money.  So no – abundance isn’t for everyone, it’s big business for a few who have learned the system for making us all feel bad for not having what they have.  After all they came from nothing, they sacrificed, so what’s stopping you?  Reality is stopping me, the reality that the limited income I have is invested in my family, the reality that my sacrifice is to forgo these seminars or weekend trip away to provide for my family.

I know you might think I’ve given up, but no.  I will take what I have learned from their “free” content.  I will find ways to be creative and build my brand.  I will help myself to grow and I will find a way to create abundance on my definition and by my rules.  I will do it the smart way and the money I save on these seminars will go toward building a better future for my family as a whole and I will find abundance of mind through their successes and feel proud that I gave them a chance to do and be all the things that they want to be.  If in the meantime I am blessed with wealth and health, I won’t be sad about it.

I am grateful for all that I have, I am grateful for the challenges and the hard times, because they have helped me appreciate the good times and the circle of life of ups and downs.  So no I won’t spend money where it isn’t necessary and I don’t need to be a multi millionaire to feel worthy of existence, I just need to be me and love those close to me hard and continue to search and find my truth, for me.

Namaste