When I became a mum for the first time, I could spend the day just sitting and holding my newborn son in my arms rocking back and forth all day, without a thought for any other task on the agenda. With each new baby however the time do this grew shorter and shorter, the demands of toddlers and then school aged kids encroached on my cuddle time with baby.
Just like that the days have flown past into weeks and years, before I knew it those same babies are grown and moving on into their own journey of adulthood; and I find myself once again with time on my hands. Copious amounts of time, that I can fill with any dream I have ever wanted to pursue. Even though this is so, I have no clue as to how I really wish to spend it. Cest la Vie (such is life), when I had little to no personal time I had so many plans for how I would spend my spare time when I found it.
Time as a concept is objective ” a watched pot never boils”, “time is fleeting”, “carpe diem”, there are so many colloquialisms about time I could fill a week researching them all.
So what activities fill my time now days? I pretend that I am a writer on some days and sit and draft and draft book outline after book outline. I may even post a blog account or two. I spend time in my garden on the nice weather days. I also waste time scrolling social media or day dreaming about my next big adventure. Also like most of us I can while away the hours chewing my nails over finances and my lack of job situation. My adamant stance that I will not just take any job this time, that I can have the third chapter career that I want; that I a determined to have, will be a reality.
Alas I am yet to find the one true joyous task that makes time fly in the blink of an eye, perhaps I am meant to be multi tasked and busy instead of focused and one eyed on my goals. I am only 50 years old I still have a good 30 or so years in me (by the grace of God) to find out what my one thing is.
The journey awaits.
Restoring my soul. 
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