Restoring my soul.

Today is the one year anniversary of my mother’s passing. She suffered with terminal cancer for 3 years before it finally won the battle. She fought it all the way with grace and self compassion and integrity. Her “it is what it is” attitude gave all of us strength as well.

The things her struggle taught me and made me aware of and determined to change in my life was the realisation that I do not want to be a frail older lady. At the age of 53 it is up to me to make sure that my body is strong and healthy and ready to fight any malady that comes my way.

I have begun (again) a new lifestyle plan which includes good whole food and daily exercise including 3 weight training sessions a week. I have also included new supplements and vitamins to my regime hopefully to help support my molecular and metabolic health.

I journal every day to stabalise my emotions and moods. I have added a nightly meditation to my schedule and sleep sounds. It has helped my sleep quality by about 30% so far and I am sure with further repetition it will get better.

Another thing my mum taught me was self awareness, if you don’t know exactly how you feel about a particular issue or event, it is impossible to understand other people or to empathise. The first person you need to be intimately knowledgeable of is yourself and to strengthen that understanding every day. Mum was always a giver, of herself, her time, her knowledge, but she also took time for herself. It is important to fill your own cup and to be kind to yourself as well.

I struggle deeply with self compassion, I am my own worst critic and battle with imposter syndrome very often, but I always come back to my mum telling me to be true to myself always. My dad was my biggest critic and was vocal with his disappointment in me, but mum would ease the burn in some way. So now I am learning to be kind to myself and forgive myself of my mistakes.

I would love to hear from you and what you do to show kindness to yourself.

Namaste